Why Do I Bother?

I really should just give up blogging all together because I honestly just don't have the time. Between two kids, taking care of a house that is just falling apart around me & work, I just don't ever want to take the time to blog. Yet for some reason, I always find myself trying to do at least one post a week because I guess I don't want to completely give up something that I've enjoyed doing for almost 4 years now. So here is today's random stream of thoughts...


Alexa slept for over 8 hours straight last night. Total heaven. Ava's been totally going through the terrible two's already, which means many, many temper tantrums, which all get completely ignored. We've been busy going to the park & the farmer's market & friend's houses. Pretty much anything that gets us out of the house that I hate so that I can avoid the millions of things that need to be done here. Here's just a sampling of the things I've been avoiding:

• Mopping
• Dusting
• Unpacking our suitcases from NY/Vegas
• Packing our suitcases for NY next week
• Going through my maternity clothes
• Going through the clothes in my dresser & closet to send to Goodwill
• Going through Ava & Alexa's clothes
• Buying a dresser for Alexa instead of pulling them out of boxes in the closet when I get tired of the same ol' clothes she's been wearing
• Going through all of Ava's toys in the living room because I've never done that & there are some non-Alexa friendly toys that in a few more months can become a big problem
• De-clutter my dining room & kitchen that for some reason just seems to accumulate (for example, my dining room currently has 1 regular stroller, 2 double strollers, & an office chair that we picked up from an abandoned suite in my building just last night)
• File. I honestly have let this get so out of control that I can't even fathom dealing with it until I can get a bigger file cabinet & have at least 4 hours to really do it right. I don't see that happening anytime soon
• Organizing the den

Notice most of this is all stuff that include organizing? I once prided myself on being such an organized person. Not at all anymore. I'd like to blame it on having kids, but I honestly haven't been all that organized since we moved into this house. I never got it properly organized in the first place & it just keeps getting worse with the more stuff we accumulate. I absolutely hate accumulating more stuff, but it always seems that we need more somehow. I'm so tired of it!

To help with the organizing though, we did pick up Ava a toy box yesterday. Now that I have the tools to organize Ava's toys, it's definitely time to tackle that task. Of course, it's park day with the mom's group so I'll probably end up doing that instead of cleaning/organizing.

Also, I hate work. Seriously. I have at least half of my tenants furious because the HVAC system doesn't work properly & there is no money to fix it, meaning I have the unfortunate job of just apologizing over & over again & not really changing anything. I have one tenant who truly hates me and I don't quite know how to deal with that because nobody hates me.

I still have pictures from 3 months ago on our digital camera that I haven't uploaded to the computer. I haven't changed my profile pic on facebook that I put up of Alexa when she was first born because I don't have a single good picture of me taken since then.

I'm very disappointed that I haven't logged into weight watchers in um, well over a month. I haven't lost any more weight because I just don't care enough. I'm not going to look fantastic at my sister's wedding next week because I can't control myself. I know Alexa isn't even 3 months old, but I should be able to do better than this.

Back in December, when I was very pregnant and apparently had no brain, I let some kid who came to our door talk me into paying $65 for a year's subscription to Rachel Ray's magazine, which I know is too much, but I had already agreed before I found out the price & I was too tired to change my mind at the time. Five months later, still don't have the magazine. Called the number on the receipt he gave me, they went out of business, but said if you ordered before January you'd still get your magazine. Um, I didn't. I'm not sure if there is anyway to fix this, or if I just suckered out of $65. Thankfully I never mentioned my stupidity to Edward so he doesn't know that I got suckered out of our hard earned money.

Enough random musings for one day. If you're still following me, good for you! What a boring person I've been lately.