All Those Years Ago

I've been feeling very old lately. Maybe it's because I have two kids now. Maybe it's because my nephew just turned 20. Maybe it's because I realized that I've lived in California for almost 7 years. Or maybe, just maybe, it's because I turn 30 this year. Yes, I'm thinking that may be the real cause for this sudden feeling of oldness.

Remember being a teenager & hearing your parents discuss something from before you were born & hearing them say "that was so long ago, it must have been at least 15 years ago!" Remember thinking how weird it must be to actually be able to remember things from 15 years ago? 15 years ago I was 15. Um, I remember things from when I was 15. I am definitely old.

15 years ago I was babysitting for my cousins Luke & Emma, who were just babies.

Now Emma is 15 & will be babysitting my two girls when I'm at my sister's wedding.

15 years ago I was looking forward to getting my learner's permit so that I could drive an awesome little car.

Now I drive a mini-van.

15 years ago I was fantasizing about how amazing it would someday be to have hot, wild sex with my tall, dark & handsome husband, who would also make over 6 figures & be very rich.

Now I actually fake headaches occasionally to get out of having sex with my tall (which makes me look short), dark (half Japanese), and handsome (well, I think he's handsome!) husband, who does make 6 figures (which in the bay area, 15 years later, is really just middle class).

15 years ago I was in great shape from all the walking, cheerleading & general energy level of a teenager.

Now I get my exercise by pushing a double stroller through the mall.

So yes, it is really weird to be able to say something happened 15 whole years ago. You want to know something even weirder though? 15 years from now, I'll be able to look back at my 30's with fondness and say, "That was so long ago, it must have been at least 15 years ago."